A Louisiana pastor once said: "I don't hate anybody. 'Cause the Bible says it's a sin to hate. But there are some folks I hope dies of cancer of the tonsils."
Now before you decide to read on, we're going to have to have an agreement about this blog. The agreement is total candor and transparency. And this agreement is really between me and other pastors, but those in all walks of life should listen in because this applies to you, too.
Up for it?
Can you think of the name of a pastor (or ministry leader) you would secretly enjoy seeing fail in ministry? A person who, in your darkest, most deliciously evil moments, you would enjoy seeing exposed in tomorrow's paper for having an affair, extorting money or causing their church to split apart?
If you're going to be honest, you can. We all can.
Some pastors have a lot of pastor friends. They are not typical. Most pastors are very isolated from their peers and often at odds with them.
They are "the competition." And they feed into our darkest, least-talked-about disease: envy.
Irish writer Oscar Wilde once told a fictional tale about how the devil was crossing the Libyan Desert. He came upon a spot where a small number of demons were tormenting a holy hermit. The sainted man easily shook off their evil suggestions. The devil watched as his lieutenants failed to sway the hermit, then he stepped forward to give them a lesson.
"What you do is too crude," he said. "Permit me for one moment."
He then whispered to the holy man, "Your brother has just been made Bishop of Alexandria." Suddenly, a look of malignant envy clouded the once-serene face of the hermit. Then the devil turned to his imps and said, "That is the sort of thing which I should recommend."
No wonder Herman Melville called envy "the rabies of the heart."
Envy has its genesis when we see something desirable that belongs to another person. It could be physical appearance, a job, money, talent, position, a spouse, even children. The other person possesses something that we want. Envy is a vice of proximity – the closer someone is to us in terms of vocation, temperament, gifts, or position, the more fertile is the soil in which envy grows. In the classic pattern, notes theologian Cornelius Plantinga, the prosperous envier resents the rich, the one who runs a mile in 3:58 resents the one who runs it in 3:54, the pretty resent the beautiful, and the hardworking B+ student resents the straight-A student, especially the happy-go-lucky one who never seems to study.
When you give in to envy, you not only desire what another person has and resent him for having it; you also want to destroy its presence in the other person's life. What an envier ultimately wants is not simply what another has; what an envier wants is for another not to have it.
Most of the time this is subtle. For example, Chuck Swindoll says we can take the "but approach". We say,
"He's an excellent salesman, but he isn't very sincere."
"Yeah, she's smart, but she doesn't have any common sense."
"She's a good surgeon, but she doesn't mind charging you for it."
The "but approach" is utilized when we reluctantly acknowledge a particular gift in someone, but then let envy quickly enter to destroy the other person's gift.
The subtle nature of envy's destructive bent is not always verbal, much less even active. There is a silent version of envy's destructive tendencies. Consider the secret satisfaction we experience at the misfortune of others. The Germans have a word for it: schadenfreude, which means finding joy in the suffering of another.
Do you revel in the success of another church? Do you enjoy it when the local newspaper features a story on something positive that they did?
Or would you have preferred to read about a downfall – declining attendance, a staff defection, a failed effort at outreach or a scandal?
Let's be honest.
We'd like the dirt.
Sometimes, we'll even participate in spreading it, being quick to share rumor and innuendo, gossip and hearsay. Why? We pathetically think it tears them down and builds us up.
Can we call it what it is?
That leader is your brother or sister in Christ. You really are in this together. They are not the competition, much less the enemy.
Why can't we get this one right? It's so terribly destructive.
This is why the Bible warns us of the sin of envy in such strong language: "If you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. Such 'wisdom' does not come down from heaven but is earthly, unspiritual, of the devil. For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice" (James 3:14-16).
And church leaders are as prone to it as anyone. In fact, we may be among the worst.
Bottom line: don't compare yourself to other Christians, other leaders, and other churches – except to learn from them as mentors.
Remember how Jesus handled this?
Turning his head, Peter noticed the disciple Jesus loved following right behind. When Peter noticed him, he asked Jesus, "Master, what's going to happen to him?"
Jesus said, "If I want him to live until I come again, what's that to you? You – follow me." That is how the rumor got out among the brothers that this disciple wouldn't die. But that is not what Jesus said. He simply said, "If I want him to live until I come again, what's that to you?" (John 21:20-23, Message)
God will almost certainly have others live longer and do more than you – or me. The real issue?
"You – follow me."
James Emery White
Adapted from James Emery White, What They Didn't Teach You in Seminary.
Will D. Campbell, Brother to a Dragonfly.
Cornelius Plantinga, Jr., Not the Way It's Supposed to Be.